Today was appointment day at the hospital for Erin, we parked in our usual place and walked the familiar sterile corridors. Erin was a little tired and asked for the lift rather than tackle the stairs. She pressed the familiar button that summons the lift to outpatients. We were joined in the lift by two other adults, luckily neither wanted to press the button because Erin’s hand was hovering over it, like it was the buzzer in some TV gameshow!
I noted that we were ten minutes early as I absentmindedly looked at the clock wondering how long we would be sitting and waiting before being called. Today was good and we were in within 15 minutes. I wan’t expecting anything from this ophthalmology appointment except to be discharged. Erin was seen by them last summer and they decided to keep her on their books and just do a final check on her eye health before starting school. I had forgotton all about it and even when the appointment arrived I thought it was a mistake and was supposed to be for orthoptics (which we were waiting for) as opposed to ophthalmology.
As Erin’s name was called I flicked my phone to silent and entered the room. Erin sat in the chair and proceeded through the test. She was shy and wanted to hold my hand whilst she was checked. After checking the health of her eyes it moved to the vision test. It seems from the test that Erin’s vision had decreased a little from last year. The vision in her right eye is now below normal and so rather than that elusive discharge we have a glasses test appointment to come. At that appointment they will confirm whether Erin requires glasses.
Within a month we will have the appointment, her eyes will have some drops which will help them dilate and we will see whether glasses will help correct her vision.
Glasses don’t bother me. I know she will rock the look and look beyond cute. However I am concerned that once again it is her right side. Much like the physio pointed out the right side of Erin’s body is much weaker – is this a co-incidence or is there more to it?
I also just feel that yet again she got a short straw. She limps a little, has a leg length difference, has regular aches and pains, she has hypermobility, she has grommets, she has asthma, a heart murmur and now this. All of it manageable but why does she have to keep managing things. When is she going to catch a break? Invisible conditions, all of them which I am sure at times make me look and sound like an over protective paranoid mother. Rather than being discharged we will have another appointment. Another date to add to the calendar in the next month to sit alongside podiatry and cardiology. Hopefully our car space will be saved for us!